Just FYI, I think I am experiencing a mid-twenties freak out. Or what’s more commonly referred to as a quarter-life crisis.
I just read a Buzzfeed article titled ’10 signs you’re having a quarter-life crisis’ and agreed with basically everything in the article, so if that’s not a surefire diagnosis, I don’t know what is.
Wikipedia defines the quarter-life crisis as:
A period of life usually ranging from the late teens to the early thirties, in which a person begins to feel doubtful about their own lives, brought on by the stress of becoming an adult.
THIS IS EXACTLY WHAT I’M GOING THROUGH.
I’ve been in my new job for approximately 6 months, and about a month ago it occurred to be that I hated it. It’s stressful, it makes me constantly anxious, the clients are a pain in the fucking ass, and above all, I just don’t feel passionate about the work I’m doing.
Blah blah blah, I know it sounds so cliche. What does ‘feeling passionate about the work you do’ even mean? Do people ever, really feel passionate about a job? I mean, it is just a job after all.
And it is that, exact, attitude that has made me decide to give it all up and pursue something different. I don’t want to do something that is ‘just a job’. I want to spend my days doing something worth while. Something that means something to me. Whatever the FUCK that means.
Up until this point I have been the ‘together’ one, the one who knows what she wants to do, who works hard, and loves her high profile career. And now I am just like every other twenty-something who has yet to ‘find themselves’.
It’s quite relaxing to be honest.
I’ve been working hard to be ‘successful’ for the past 6 years. I worked my ass off at university, then worked my ass off at my first job, and am now killing myself at my current job. I’ve never failed before, in the traditional sense, but I don’t feel ‘successful’ – I feel tired.
I’m only 24. I shouldn’t be tired. I should be excited to live life!
I don’t want to live the rest of my life in a career that makes me stressed, busting my ass for some lame deadline for an ungrateful client.
So now I have no idea what I want to do with my life. Which is quite exciting, but also quite nerve raking. All I know right now is that I have an incredible urge just to run away and life like a hippie by the beach for a while. I just want to escape this depressing, corporate trap I have found myself in. Unfortunately the reality is that I can’t just up and leave my current job to run away towards the sunset until I decide on my next move… So I have to sit tight for the moment.
But watch this space! I’ll figure it out.
Please tell me I’m not the only one who is experiencing this. Share with my internet people!